I'm 21 years old, going through intense existential crisis. Feeling intense waves of anxiety and depression, sometimes to the point of wanting to take my own life. I feel deeply empty, ugly and worthless. I know in my mind that what I'm experiencing is a very distorted view of reality. I am so sad and so anxious so much of the time. Can you offer any advice? I would really appreciate it.
Sons of Socrates Answer:
The truth twists it’s knife into the flesh of your conditioning. You are essentially realizing how much of what you’d previously regarded as fact is actually opinion. Embrace the pain of your confusion as motivation to transcend the insecurity that your ignorance entails.
Take advantage of this psychological disestablishment to familiarize yourself with the universe, relish in this opportunity for fresh experience. Utilize your senses to ground you. You are not in immediate danger. Begin writing down idea’s, contradictions, etc, until the chaos unfolds into the realization of certain fundamental components of existence.
"- Allan G. Johnson (via liberatingreality)
An oppressive system often seems stable because it limits people’s lives and imaginations so much that they can’t see beyond the limitations. This is especially true when a social system has existed for so long that its past extends beyond collective memory of anything different. As a result, it lays down terms of social life - including various forms of privilege - that can easily be mistaken for some kind of normal and inevitable human condition.
But this situation masks a fundamental long-term instability caused by the dynamics of oppression itself. Any system organized around one group’s efforts to control and exploit another is ultimately a losing proposition, because it contradicts the essentially uncontrollable nature of reality and does violence to basic human needs and values."
Paul, how can I speak/converse the way I type/write?
Sons of Socrates Answer:
Well, social discourse is usually more fast paced than writing, perhaps resulting in the anxiety of recognizing a far more limited time frame to organize and communicate efficiently.
Social environments also usually entail a myriad of conflicting perspectives, which may trigger hesitation regarding expressing yourself, due to considering the consequences of how others may perceive you.
The best advice I can give is to not assume failure and consent to social norms/persona’s on the basis of maintaining security. You will simply continue to forsake opportunity for authentic communication.
Find motivation in the awareness that efficient communication is essential to establishing intimate, co-empowering relationships. It takes practice, like anything, all you can do is begin.